Psychological Torture - No Touch Torture

Bad Experiments

What is it like to be the  involuntary target of a cruel, unending campaign of round-the-clock psychological torture and battering with high-tech through-the-wall weaponry? How are these covert psychological no-touch torture campaigns conducted and why? What evidence supports the existence of through-the-wall surveillance technologies and directed energy weapons (DEWs) that make such attacks possible? In this account we follow a victims’ story and the accumulation of evidence to support it. These accounts are in chronological order (dating back to 2008) with the newest accounts first.

Unlike the claims of other online victims of these weapons (whether genuine or of dubious origin) this is not a personal attack on my antagonists. There is no name-calling or hate-filled commentary here. I am simply trying to gather evidence and make sense of what I have endured for over two decades.

Most importantly, I focus on solutions. I share the principles and strategies that have enabled me to survive this multi-year ordeal.

I’ve made an archived index to help you read my account in the order in which it is written. Go to the archived index here.

–  Don P.


Incident Report – May 4, 2019

FBI agents have a practice of taking notes on all sorts of conversations. Good ideas are worth imitating. I have decided that for my own safety, I should record a note of an incident that occurred today at my residence.

About 5:30 or so this evening, I came out of my apartment with a bag of trash for the compactor down the hall from my apartment. Also, I was heading to a local store to purchase frames for photos I planned to mount in my apartment. As I left my apartment, I noticed one of my neighbors, named O— coming down the hall from the direction of the trash compactor and elevator. From the opposite direction, another neighbor (whose name I do not know, I’ll call him neighbor #2) was approaching from down the hall.

This did not feel right, so I simply waited by my door. If I had started walking, it would have meant I would have crossed paths with O— on my way to the elevator while having neighbor #2 behind me. Because I remained at my door, these two individuals crossed paths about 20 feet past my apartment door in the direction of the elevator. They appeared to communicate for a brief moment. Neighbor #2 kept walking towards the elevator, while O— hesitated for a moment and turned to his right. When he did so, I noticed that he was carrying collapsible style steel baton weapon (extended) tucked behind his right arm.

I had started walking towards the elevator and trash compactor with three bags of trash. O— seemed to be hesitating as if he were not sure what to do. “Why are you carrying a weapon?” I asked. I’m helping a woman out by looking for someone” he replied (as best as I can recall). He appeared to be behaving like a self-styled vigilante with a weapon. “You need to think about those kids ( his children) who need a positive role model as a father. If there’s a problem call the police.” I replied. O— said nothing in response and started walking towards his apartment.

Neighbor #2 was joined by a third neighbor (neighbor #3, I do not know his name) at the elevator. I walked past them to throw my trash in the compactor. “If you have a problem with someone you call the police, not behave like a vigilante,” I said to them at the elevator. “Oh, no one is a vigilante here,” said neighbor #3. They got on the elevator and left. Once I finished putting the trash in the compactor, I rang for the elevator to head to the store.

A man I estimate to be in his mid-30’s stepped off the elevator who I had never seen before. He seemed a bit flush and ill at ease. “Do you live here? I asked. “Are you the guy that lives moved in next door? I thought that he looked vaguely familiar and could be my new next door neighbor. “You don’t have the right to ask me anything,” he replied. I live on the first floor, he added. Rather than heading to any apartment as a destination, he stood by the window nearest to the elevator. “I’m just here to observe, what’s it to you.” he added while standing by the window. I said nothing more to him and got on the elevator for the first floor.

When I returned from the store, I ran into another neighbor on my floor as I exited the elevator who I knew was familiar with my other neighbors. “Please let your friends know that if I see anyone brandishing a weapon I will call the police.

This is a record of this incident as it occurred on May 4, 2019.  -Don P.

A True Life Cautionary Tale

One of the realities of life that attends being a Black male in these United States is the risk of unpleasant encounters with law enforcement personnel. Indeed, the pattern of harassment that I have endured for the past two decades has included a number of such incidents. Thankfully, they have all turned out well. For good reason, I mentally rehearse how to respond to such potential encounters as part of my preparation for the day. I remind myself to stay calm and to carefully measure my responses to such encounters in a way that stays well within the boundaries of civility and respect. My life depends on it.

My ability to do that has been sorely tested at times. Perhaps, no more so than during the three years I lived in Phoenix, Arizona. I moved to Phoenix during a time when I was infatuated with all things Southwestern. Moving here allowed me to explore all of the natural attractions of Arizona at my leisure, something I always look back upon fondly. It also meant enduring a period of intensified harassment by uniformed police officers in the city proper whenever I was in my vehicle.

No one walks in Phoenix. Perhaps due to the notoriously intense summer heat and city planning that is not pedestrian friendly, it is a city where few souls are ever seen on public streets. You drive everywhere. Likely, it is for this reason that my harassment here was predominated by uniformed officers in marked police cars.

Not a week would pass here without my being stopped by police in traffic for what seemed to me to be contrived and trivial reasons. Oddly, I was never ticketed, yet on a weekly basis, I would be pulled over while driving. So much so, that I would do a walk-around of my car daily before leaving home, checking that all the lights were working and everything was up to par. Also, I was very conscious of strictly obeying traffic laws. Yet, week after week, the traffic stops by uniformed officers continued.

police sirens and lights flashing

Once, on a Sunday morning, while driving to my place of worship, I was stopped and detained for supposedly making a lane change without using a turn signal. I was required to stand by my vehicle for a half hour in the 106-degree summer heat while officers from two police cars with flashing lights held my license and registration. They were laughing and chatting in their vehicle as I stood outside my car. Many of my fellow congregants drove by during that time, no doubt wondering why I was being detained. In hindsight, as I was new to the area, this may have been done to damage my reputation with my congregation. I prayed intensely for the strength to remain calm. I knew that any improper response on my part would turn out badly. Finally, the officers returned my ID and left. My stomach was churning in frustration. Yet, I had ‘conquered the evil with the good’ by exercising restraint once again. That was not easy.

Now, here is why I call this a cautionary tale. On one occasion, my frustration did get the better of me. One of the forms of harassment I experienced while driving in Phoenix were police vehicles with sirens and flashing lights continually speeding up behind me. I would pull over, expecting to be detained once again. Once I did so, the officer would simply drive by, never stopping. This was no coincidence. It would take place three to five time per week, sometimes twice in a day.

Frustration was building within me. Unwisely, I was allowing my inner peace to be chipped away. On this one day, blinded by emotion, I decided to confront one of the officers who engaged in this harassment. I drove up next to his police cruiser and motioned that I wanted to speak to him. “Have the courage to tell me why you are doing this.” I thought to myself. I simply wanted a face to face conversation. Why? Why am I being treated this way?

He pretended not to see me. That only added to my frustration. I started honking my horn and gesturing all the more. He ignored me. It seems that this went on for at least three miles as we drove side by side. I had no thought of malice toward this officer. I just want to know why you are doing this? Who is behind it? Talk to me! Persistently, I followed his vehicle.

Finally, the officer slows down and turns into a side street. This is a two-way street in a residential area that dead-ended in a cul-de-sac. The officer drives into the cul-de-sac and stops, getting out of his car. I park behind him and get out of my car.

Consider my frame of mind at that moment. I just wanted an answer to one question. Why? In my determination to ask that question, I had thrown all caution to the wind. Emotion was controlling my actions, not reason.

The officer stood alone. I explained why I wanted to speak to him. I told him about the pattern of harassment I was enduring, and that I believed that his actions were part of that pattern. “Why are police officers doing this? What do you have against me?”

I stood about eight feet away from the officer. He was a white male, in his late thirties it seemed, of average build and height. His posture was relaxed and non-threatening. However, in a low tone of voice, he begins a very strange response. He never addresses me personally, but refers only to ‘people like me.’ As he does so, he describes these ‘people like me’ by using a string of highly derogatory racial slurs. There was nothing subtle about his words. They were meant to be inflammatory. I was being provoked!*

“Before the quarrel has burst forth, take your leave.” – Proverbs 17:14

In that moment, his corrosive words cleared my head like a strong slap to the face. Suddenly, I realized that my unreasoning emotions had led me to a very dangerous place. His stream of vile speech continued, but I was no longer listening. I was assessing my surroundings as quickly as I could think. Nothing positive would be gained by continuing this conversation.  Just leave, I thought to myself . . . You are in danger . . . Say nothing, do not even make a single gesture that could be interpreted as hostile . . . Get in your car and leave. Now! Clear, rational thoughts were replacing blind emotion in my mind. Those thoughts guided my next response.

“A man of knowledge restrains his words, And a discerning man will remain calm.” – Proverbs 17:27

“Have a good day Officer.” With those words, I interrupted his provocative tirade. I made no further reply. I turned away, being careful to smile and use a pleasant tone of voice. As I walked to my car, I was careful not to make any gestures that could be interpreted as hostile. I never glanced behind me as I drove away. My heart was pounding, and I was shaking. It seemed to take forever to leave that street.

Now, as the effects of my frustration wore off, I began to take stock of what had just happened. First, it was pure foolishness on my part that had brought me here. I had allowed my emotions to guide me, and they put my life in danger. One by one, I began to review the actions taken by this officer.

Why did he turn into this street, one ending in a cul-de-sac? No doubt, it ensured that I was trapped should things spin out of control. While I did not see any other police vehicles, the officer certainly had time to set up a dragnet surrounding that cul-de-sac. I am convinced that they were waiting out of sight. That street was chosen because there was only one way out.

Also, while that officer’s speech was laced with derogatory racial epithets, his visual demeanor appeared unusually calm and relaxed, clearly at odds with his provocative choice of words. Why? Could it be that this encounter was being video recorded? Since I was being provoked, the recorded visual impression (as well as the impression given to any potential onlookers) would make it appear that I was the instigator of any potential hostility. Clearly, he wanted to provoke a negative, angered response from me while making himself appear benign. That would give him an excuse to do me further harm.

Thirdly, why didn’t he address me directly? The pattern of harassment I was enduring was covert in nature. None of the participants ever admits their role or why I am targeted. Certainly, this officer was not going to do so either.

I was deeply shaken by how badly things could have gone. Thankfully, I had regained my senses just in time.

I learned a powerful lesson that day. I had allowed frustration and anger to taint my thinking and actions. I did not think before responding. My emotions took over and could have made things go very badly for me. “Do not be quick to take offense, for the taking of offense lodges in the bosom of fools.” – Ecclesiastes 7:9

As is so often the case in these encounters, what can do the greatest harm is not the actions of my harassers but my response to their provocation. What is more, a single bad decision, made in frustration, could have led to disastrous life-changing consequences. I was now more determined than ever to cultivate and maintain self-control, never allowing frustration to reach the boiling point. Although the harassment continued in the days that followed, I kept my emotions in check. That encounter forced me to reflect deeply on the importance of always thinking before responding. By doing so, it better prepared me to cope successfully with the years of harassment and provocation that have followed.

Think, Don’t Act on Emotion!

*In this encounter, it would have been quite easy to react emotionally to the extreme prejudice expressed in the Officer’s words. The officer’s vitriolic comments were, in fact, a psychological bait, designed to lure me into making an angered, negative response. My past experience with provocation harassment schemes helped me to identify his tactics.

The officer attacked what he assumed to be a likely anger trigger, my sensitivity as a Black male to racism. The campaign of mistreatment by police officers up to that point was intended to fuel my frustration. It was all done with the expectation that I would react predictably, in outrage. They had a well-planned strategy in place if I did so.  Any negative reaction to his provocation would give him an excuse to take control of me or cause me harm.

Here is where my exercise of insight was essential. The officer’s words were an act of instrumental aggression, not hostile aggression. This was not simply an expression of personal hostility by the officer. Rather, it was instrumental, in that, it was carried out to achieve a specific goal or result.

“Hostile aggression is intentional with the purpose to inflict pain. Hostile aggression is often motivated by anger. In contrast, instrumental aggression is not motivated by anger or the intention to cause pain. Instrumental aggression serves as a means to reach a goal.” – Herkimer College / SUNY Introductory Psychology

Discerning the motive behind the officer’s aggression helped me to properly assess my situation and respond appropriately. I choose to remain silent, rather than escalating or extending the conflict by arguing. By doing so, I controlled the outcome of this encounter and protected my interests. My freedom, my very life, depended on using sound thinking ability to neutralize a dangerous situation. Thankfully, in the closing moments of this scheme, I was able to do so.

“In fact . . . Christ suffered for you, leaving a model for you to follow his steps closely . . .When he was being insulted, he did not insult in return. When he was suffering, he did not threaten, but he entrusted himself to the One who judges righteously . . .” – 1 Peter 2:21-23

The question remains, however, why did I come so close to allowing frustration and anger to guide my actions in the first place? Looking back, I realized that over time, I had allowed my thinking to focus on the problem, not the solution. Focusing on frustrations and fears weakens the mind. I had begun to think too much about the actions of my harassers, not on what I needed to do to handle matters successfully. I had handled past encounters with self-control. Yet, over time, I began to take the mental preparation needed for such encounters for granted.

Failure to prepare mentally in advance makes it much more likely that your reactions will be based on emotion, not sound reasoning. You cannot wait until a situation occurs to decide how you will respond. You need to have well in mind the principles that will guide your actions before a stressful encounter occurs. In my case, Bible principles such as the ones featured in this post had to be reviewed and pondered over on a regular basis. This reinforces those principles in my mind, making it much more likely that I will act in accord with them when under psychological attack. This is a war for my mind. My mind’s defenses must be at their strongest if they are to guide my actions and reactions reliably.

“Safeguard practical wisdom and thinking ability, and they will prove to be life to your soul.”—Prov. 3:21, 22.

I am thoroughly convinced that Bible principles saved my life that day.

Unbroken Will

We can gain strength by walking with the strong. Here is a documentary featuring the life story of Leopold Engleitner, a man who severely persecuted for his stand as one of Jehovah’s Witnesses and a conscientious objector in Austria. On April 4, 1939 he was arrested by the Gestapo. From October 9, 1939 to 15 July 15, 1943 he was held in the concentration camps Buchenwald, Niederhagen and Ravensbrueck.  The documentary entitled Unbroken Will, The Story of Leopold Engleitner is an inspiring account of conquering evil with good. – Romans 12:21

May it inspire all who are determined to conquer the evil with the good.

The song Unbroken Will was dedicated to Leopold Engleitner. It can be played below. The song lyrics are also provided below. They too are inspiring.

Unbroken Will (Lyrics)

Men . . .
Men hunting men
making their victims’ hate just like them
Only the few who dare refuse their broad way
do not lose themselves along the way

A tolerant soul
At great cost has peace as his goal
Some would say the weak follow his own course
But time tells of no stronger force

Unbroken will
Unlike the weak who kneel
No compromising will ever do

Unbroken will
Standing firm even still
Determined the right thing ever to do
Unbroken will

No blood on his hands
He simply says no when evil demands
Should history repeat itself in our day
Will we choose his better way

Unbroken will
Unlike the weak who kneel
No compromising will ever do

Unbroken will
Standing firm even still
Determined the right thing ever to do
Unbroken will

Evil may reign and ruin the innocent
But the spirit behind his will they can´t kill

Unbroken will
Unlike the weak who kneel
No compromising will ever do

Unbroken will
Standing firm even still
Determined the right thing ever to do
Unbroken will
Unbroken will
Unlike the weak who kneel
No compromising will ever do
Standing firm even still
Determined the right thing ever to do
Unbroken will…


Escaping the Trap of the Provocateur

“Every man wishing me peace was watching for my downfall: “Perhaps he will make a foolish mistake, and we can prevail and take our revenge against him.”– Jeremiah 20:10 (Bible)

The dictionary defines provocation as “action or speech that makes someone annoyed or angry, especially deliberately.” It is a deliberate act intended to injure or cause emotional pain. In turn, our pain may trigger a rash or angered response. That response can be used against us to our harm.

Provocation is a favored tool of covert agencies who seek to destroy the unsuspecting. It is not new. The Bible writer Jeremiah quoted above was a target of provocation by those who hated him. As his words indicate, the cruel intent of provocation is often hidden behind a veneer of feigned friendliness or charm. It waits to exploit any mistake that we may make in the heat of annoyance or frustration.

Provocation has been used by covert agencies in Russia, United States, Europe, and Canada as a way to incite violence or other criminal behavior in peaceful groups, giving a pretext for legal action or aggression against that group.

As an individual, I have been the target of an organized campaign of provocation. The intent is to cause a “foolish mistake” or rash action on my part that can be used to destroy my reputation or worse. Because these schemes have been employed against me repeatedly, over more than a decade, I have discerned a basic script or pattern that is nearly always followed in each attack. The settings and covert actors may change, but the basic blueprint remains consistent.

The Methods of the Provocateur

Here are the fundamental strategies I’ve observed in each attack I have endured:


Generally, you will go through a series of repeated acts of rudeness, derision, humiliation, noise harassment, or other forms of irritation that usually go unnoticed by others. These seemingly minor but repeated acts of irritation target your emotional triggers. Or it may be that you have experienced some setbacks, illness, financial hardship, or other discouraging situations that have made you emotionally vulnerable. Your weakened emotional state is exploited. The intent is to increase the likelihood that you will respond rashly when frustrated by the climactic “attack” of the provocateur.

2. The Setting

The provocateur’s attack is always carried out in a setting where audio and video is lawfully recorded as a matter of routine. This gives the provocateur access to a recording of the event that can be used in a judicial setting if necessary. Nearly every major large retailer, office building (commercial & government), and public transportation will have surveillance cameras in areas where the public is served. Generally, such settings are carefully chosen as the scene of the provocateur’s attack. Since we all frequent certain businesses on a weekly or daily basis, this affords the provocateur the opportunity to set up a scheme in anticipation of our arrival. Be certain that when these schemes are carried out your actions are being recorded. These recordings can be used as evidence against you if you react rashly.

3. The Actors and Observers

The key actor is the provocateur. They have the speaking role in this attack. Remember the words of the Bible writer Jeremiah quoted at the start of this article? “Every man wishing me peace was watching for my downfall…” Often the provocateur will hide hostile speech with a smile or veneer of charm. They do not want to give the impression to bystanders of being the aggressor. The intent is to make you appear to be such by your irritated response. Nevertheless, their words and actions are carefully chosen to heighten your frustration while appearing to be benign to onlookers.

Here is a sample encounter: Perhaps you have a package to pick up at a business. You received a notice that it is ready, yet it seems that no one can find it when you arrive. You are told to come back repeatedly. Yet, each time the package, mysteriously, cannot be found. Can you sense the potential for frustration created by this scenario?

The provocateur is trained to heighten that frustration while giving the impression of being helpful. Keep in mind that you have already been preconditioned by a series of frustrating incidents leading up to this encounter. If you respond rashly, out of frustration, that action will be recorded and in some way used to your harm.

In businesses that I visit on a daily or weekly basis, I have noticed that the provocateur may temporarily replace a staff member that usually serves in a customer service position.

The Observers: When you enter a business where a provocateurs scheme has been staged, often you will be on line in a customer service setting. The persons immediately ahead of you on line and behind you will be observers working with your provocateur. They all have one role. To serve as potential witnesses against you as conspirators with the provocateur. Generally, they do not have a speaking role. Nevertheless, they have a clear view of you, front and rear as the scheme progresses and pay keen attention. Since the incident is being recorded, they can also serve to verify the authenticity of any audio and video evidence that is used against you in a judicial setting (such as a court proceeding). Their interpretation of the incident can and will be used against you.

Finally, you can be certain that there are security personnel hidden out of sight nearby if the situation becomes heated. I have often observed an increased presence in police or other security personnel when these attacks have been staged in places I frequent. Of course, if you do not respond rashly there is no reason to trigger a response by the security detail. There is always a security detail hidden nearby.

Disarming the Provocateur

Put yourself in my shoes for the moment. How would you respond to a pattern of staged events intended to provoke your anger? Would you follow the advice of noted psychiatrist and criminologist Joel Fort, in the article Are You Angry? Let It All Hang Out! “Swearing and yelling can help,” he said. “Use more imagination when you swear. Try learning to swear in two languages. Use sexual swear words more creatively. Strike or break objects rather than people or animals. Kick the wall, break dishes.” – Elyria Chronicle Telegram Newspaper, May 18, 1978

If I responded by “swearing and yelling” it would be used against me. That was the very response sought by the provocateur. My anger was their weapon. By not becoming angry, I effectively disarmed the provocateur. Their schemes failed. Rather than follow the advice of the psychiatrist and criminologist mentioned above, I turned to a wiser source: “Let go of anger and abandon rage; Do not become upset and turn to doing evil. . .” (Psalm 37:8)

Why Is this Done?

What purpose does the provocateur and his supporters serve? Here is a hypothesis: There are two ways for a state authority to gain control of a person. The first is by arrest for a crime. But what if you are not committing crimes?

There is strong anecdotal evidence (augmented by my personal experiences) that covert government agencies and law enforcement agencies commonly use what is termed ‘managed aggression’ or ‘professional aggression.’ This is a program of willful provocation that creates a state of fear and anger. The intent is to harass you until you commit a punishable or exploitable offense. Ultimately, what you say or do in the heat of anger or frustration induced by these attacks will be used against you.

Or, ‘managed aggression’ may be used by covert or police agencies to create a climate of fear that induces your compromise in some way. The intimidation is intended to force you to do something that is not in your best interests.  Any acts of poor judgment under such aggressive treatment become a coercive bargaining chip that will be used against you.

However, this also creates a secondary way to gain control that can be used by the provocateur. That is by involuntary detention for psychiatric evaluation and treatment. If you have eyewitnesses claiming that on a number of occasions you appeared to be a risk to yourselves or others (backed by video evidence), that can trigger involuntary or forced detention by civil authorities for psychological evaluation and treatment. All states have laws in place allowing for such detention.*

Managing and controlling your emotions is vital when such attacks occur. You must remain calm and think of the long term consequences of your responses. I am thoroughly convinced that following the Bible’s advice to “Return evil for evil to no one.” has kept me out of harm’s way on many occasions. -Romans 12:17 (Bible)


*According to the State Standards for Involuntary Treatment, in New Mexico (where I reside, each state has its own requirements): “An interested person who reasonably believes that an adult is suffering from a mental disorder and presents a likelihood of serious harm to the adult’s own self or others, but does not require emergency care, may request the district attorney to investigate and determine whether reasonable grounds exist to commit the adult for a thirty day period of evaluation and treatment.”


Addendum: You can also read about the use of provocation by my harassers in these posts written over 10 years ago:


Spies of Mississippi

The Spies of Mississippi

The Spies of Mississippi is an Independent Lens documentary that appeared on PBS, a public television channel in February, 2014. It is based on a book entitled Spies of Mississippi, The True Story of the Spy Network That Tried to Destroy the Civil Rights Movement by Rick Bowers, published in 2010.

I will add no commentary to this video. It is submitted purely as a form of analogical evidence: The historical evidence provided in this video may help you to see the plausibility of my story.

Additional Reading: NY Times article on the Mississippi State Sovereignty Commission

intinidation by police

Chapter 9: My West Side Story

I recorded this account over a decade ago while living in Newark, NJ. I was employed in New York City at the time. It provides an glimpse into the various forms of harassment and “street theatre” I have endured over the past eleven years. Law enforcement (and Federal agents posing as local law enforcement) are used as a tool of intimidation by my harassers. This post was first published on April 30, 2004 and updated on May 7, 2017 (it has been taken out of chronological order).

I respect law. I do not fear law.

To some, that statement may seem to be nothing more than wordplay, an exercise in semantics. It is not. A person who respects law strives to be law abiding. On the other hand, a criminal fears law because it renders punishment for illicit activities. However, there is another danger that fear can present, even to the law-abiding man—fear can lead to anxiety, panic and poor judgement when threatened. Fear can be used against us. This is my story…

It was a sunny, late Friday afternoon in midtown Manhattan. My workday completed, I was strolling along 9th Avenue toward 51st St, wearing the suit and tie that are my everyday attire. I have a fondness for this area of New York City. It is populated with numerous family-owned ethnic restaurants. In fact, my favorite Italian, Greek, and Taiwanese restaurants are located along this busy strip, within a three block radius. My after-work Friday’s are often spent strolling, perusing menus, and finally selecting a place to dine. On this particular afternoon, I was alone.

I strolled along 9th Ave. approaching 49th Street (near the shuttered Cineplex theatre). My thoughts were on choosing a restaurant for the evening. As I looked two blocks ahead, I saw a NYPD (New York Police Department) van and an unmarked black Ford Crown Victoria, moving quickly through the traffic towards me. Both vehicles had their strobe lights flashing, and sirens blaring. The police van started to turn on 50th Street as I approached that intersection. Then, suddenly, a voice shouted from the van over a megaphone , “Go straight, he’s in front of you!” So the police van quickly veered back onto 9th Avenue and headed for the curb, about thirty feet in front of me.

Suddenly, five police officers, jumped from the van with their guns drawn and rushed towards me. Simultaneously, two plainclothes detectives jumped out of the unmarked Crown Victoria, guns also drawn, and joined this group of officers, all running towards me in unison…

I ask you, the reader, to put yourself in my shoes. How would you respond in this situation? You have been the target of continuous harassment by Federal operatives. Although innocent, you have been under constant surveillance and have endured numerous schemes designed to humiliate and provoke you. You have also been the target of numerous failed attempts to lure you into illicit drug purchases. Now, it all culminates in this one life threatening moment. What do you do? You have split seconds to react. How should you react? Do you panic, give way to fear? Do you begin to run?

What did I do?

The evening’s calm was suddenly ripped away by the drama that played before me. I watched as five police officers and two detectives leaped from their vehicles, rushing toward me with weapons drawn. Did my life hang in the balance at that moment?

My default response in times of trouble is to say a silent prayer to God. This one lasted only milliseconds. However, it was enough help me maintain my inner calm and bolster my courage. Time seemed to slow down dramatically.

As they leaped from the NYPD (New York Police Department) van, I visually focused on one of the five officers, and began to study every nuance of his actions. I invite you, the reader, to speculate with me for a moment. If five officers with guns drawn jump out of a police van to apprehend a dangerous suspect, the tension of the moment should be apparent in their faces, their voices, and their actions. At the very least, they would maintain an intense focus on the suspect—not doing so could be deadly! Don’t you agree? However, this is not what I observed in the officer I studied. He seemed to purposely avoid looking directly at me, keeping his focus on the officer taking the lead. Also, he seemed emotionally uninvolved, his face lacking the adrenalin-induced tension a dangerous encounter would normally produce. His body language told the truth. This was not a genuine arrest. It was a well-choreographed act of intimidation, a psychological ploy designed to instill panic and fear into me.

Here is something else that seemed quite odd in that moment. The officers and plainclothes detectives said nothing to me or to the shocked bystanders witnessing this sudden encounter. No shouted orders. . . not a word! Of course, I would have instantly complied with any orders they gave me. None were given. This critical omission confirmed my suspicion that this was a psychological assault.

As the officers rushed towards me, I calmly continued walking towards them, keeping a pleasant countenance, and never breaking stride. As the officers reached me, they broke into two columns, rushing past on my right and left as I strolled by. I heard them stop less than ten feet behind me. Without glancing back, I continued walking to the end of the block, waiting for the traffic to subside before crossing the intersection.

The bystanders who seconds before watched in horror were now laughing. I did not have to look back to know why…

“Be courageous and strong. Do not be struck with terror or fear, for Jehovah your God is with you wherever you go.” (Joshua. 1:9)

The assault was over. I calmly crossed the street and continued strolling without glancing back. You may wonder how I could survive this incident without losing control. Clearly, this was an injustice that should have provoked outrage on my part! Or should it?

Keep in mind the true purpose of this assault. It was a psychological attack with a clear motive—to induce fear. It was my potential response that could have done me the greatest harm, not their attack! They were prepared to exploit any anger and loss-of-control on my part. It would give them license to take control of me. An irrational public response would also have given bystanders the perception that I was a dangerous criminal. By controlling my response, in effect, I controlled the outcome of this incident—protecting myself from harm. If I had reacted emotionally, angrily, what would they have done to me?

Update May 7, 2017: Another Potential Motive for this Staged Encounter

A person is more likely to be exploitable or easily persuaded when in a state of fear. By creating a climate of fear, the exploiter gains an advantage over his target. My experiences in the years subsequent to this encounter confirms that this may have been the motive behind this event. Because I did not react in fear, I did not give those targeting me the opportunity they desired.

As I strolled along 9th Avenue towards 52nd Street, my mind went back to choosing a restaurant for the evening. Here was a tiny Brazilian cafe I had never noticed before. I entered, was seated, and decided to dine on a Brazilian style hamburger with a mango chutney recommended by the waitress (it was delicious). As I was eating, an African-American woman in business attire, came in and sat at a table near the entrance, giving her a clear view of the entire dining area. She ordered a Coke and began sipping slowly as she kept her cellphone to her ear. Because the cafe was tiny, I could easily overhear her conversation. She was a plainclothes agent talking to her superior while keeping me under surveillance. By her responses, I could easily discern the full scope of her conversation.

“What is he doing?” the voice in her cellphone growled. “He’s sitting here eating food.” she replied. Moments later, the voice impatiently asked “What is he doing now?” “He’s still eating,” she replied. Less than a minute passed before she responded a third time–“He’s just eating food!” As I glanced at her, I could see that she was relaxed, and chuckling quietly. She seemed amused by the outcome of the street drama that occurred minutes ago.

However, all the agents / officers involved in this drama did not find it so amusing. I instinctively knew that some felt humiliated, angered by the repeated failed efforts to entrap me. Given the cruel hubris that fueled so much of what I endured, I would not need to wait long for the next attack to occur.

The Value of Emotional Intelligence

A number of factors guided my actions in those few critical seconds. First of all, I knew that there was no legitimate reason for this attack. I had no illegal substances, no weapons, had not committed a crime, had not conspired to commit a crime. There was nothing in my actions, or conversation that would hint at criminal activity. I was determined that my response, even in the heat of the moment, would reinforce those truths.

Some experts in the field of psychology now feel that emotional intelligence (the ability to control emotions and deal empathetically with people), is more valuable than pure intellect when facing crisis. I faced an antagonist trained to exploit common emotional frailties. Therefore, it was not enough to be innocent, I also needed emotional defenses. Above all, my reliance on Bible principles has helped me to cultivate qualities such as patience, mildness, and self-control. These have been essential to my survival.

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False Friends

The people who are at peace with you will deceive you. Those who eat food with you will set traps for you, and you won’t even know about it.” —Obadiah 7, God’s Word Translation

A key component
 of the ongoing psychological attack (directed energy weapons torture & organized stalking) that I have endured for over ten years are a stream of covert government-sponsored operatives masquerading as friends. Like wolves in sheep’s clothing, these individuals insinuate themselves into my life with malicious objectives. It is this aspect of the psychological attacks I undergo that demands the greatest degree of sober vigilance and insight.

These individuals have four major objectives: They provide interference so that genuine friendships of the targeted individual are either lost or exploited, contributing to isolation and loss of support. Secondly, they gather information, looking for weaknesses to exploit. Thirdly, they hinder the victim’s ability to obtain legal recourse for the abuses he has suffered. Above all, they are hidden persuaders, using coercive techniques to gain control of their victims.

It is in my workplace, and place of worship that a concentration of these individuals appeared. It appears that covert agencies in our country use a strategy similar to the Stasi (former secret police organization) in East Germany; recruiting and training operatives who then make a career of infiltrating organizations and businesses. Their true role will generally only become apparent to the individuals they target. This is the case with the covert personnel I have encountered.

There are five key traits I have observed in covert operatives who have sought to gain my confidence:

1. The “friendships” start at an unusually rapid pace.
I’ve noticed that these covert “friendships” tend to build quickly, far more rapidly than genuine friendships. The jump from total stranger to close friend is carefully orchestrated by the covert operative so that they can get up to speed with minimal delay. The covert operative may also highly praise other individuals that are coworkers in their scheme, hoping that you befriend and trust them as well.

If the first covert operative’s “friendship” effort fails, a “backup” will step in and seek to gain your confidence. Of course, he will have studied the reasons why the first effort failed, using the lessons learned to gain your confidence. All of the individuals used for these roles are carefully selected for characteristics deemed attractive to the target.

2. They seem to share and know all of your interests.
It is rare to have genuine friends that like everything that you do. Even marriage mates differ in tastes and interests. However, the covert operatives seeking to quickly gain your confidence have done their homework. They know your interests primarily due to information collected through surveillance. Their understanding of your interests may be wide but shallow and seems a bit forced and unnatural. It all feels rather intrusive, as if someone watched you and made a list of your daily activities. In truth, that is exactly what has happened!

3. They will try to crowd out and replace your long-held and trusted friendships.
That is perhaps the most obvious and consistent trait of all the covert operatives I have come in contact with. They slyly steer you away from trusted long-held friendships. They find ways to divert your attention and time. They may invent schemes that give them the opportunity to come to your aid in some way, thereby gaining your confidence and admiration. Their intent is to isolate you so that eventually they and fellow covert operatives are the only “friends” you have.

These individuals are trained to destroy the good name of the persons they target. They will use their role as your “closest friend” to raise doubts about you to others. Eventually, you will be maneuvered into a situation that leads to a loss of reputation, employment or other personal crisis. As a result, they must be treated with extreme caution.

4. They actively hinder the victim’s ability to obtain legal recourse or protection under the rule of law.
In this, we see similarities to an earlier program of government-sponsored abuses. During the Tuskegee Experiment, the U.S. Public Health Service conducted a 40-year study on 399 black men in the late stages of syphilis. These men were willfully and deceitfully denied treatment so that upon their eventual death from the disease, their corpses could be used for medical research. To keep the unwitting participants from getting proper treatment or information about their condition, an elaborate scheme of lies and manipulation was set in place that demanded the coordination of both Federal and local health and education agencies. A black nurse who gained the trust of these men was used to play a key role in deceiving them during this 40-year pattern of injustice.

It appears that modern programs of involuntary testing done with directed energy weapons and psychological attacks use a similar strategy to ensure that its victims never have access to any meaningful lawful protection from the abuses they suffer. The covert personnel masquerading as friends plays an essential ongoing role in this drama. They are the frontline of lies and manipulation intended to weaken and confuse any efforts by their victim to obtain legal protections under the law.

5. They exert a toxic, negative, and potentially destructive influence.
There is both an emotional and physical toll that comes from having a friendship with a person that is plotting against you. The Bible writer King David describes the effects of being betrayed by a close friend at Psalm 55:12-2-14, 17:

“For it is not an enemy who taunts me;
Otherwise I could put up with it.
It is not a foe who has risen up against me;
Otherwise I could conceal myself from him.
But it is you, a man like me,
My own companion whom I know well.
We used to enjoy a warm friendship together;
Into the house of God we used to walk along with the multitude…
Evening and morning and noontime, I am troubled and I groan…”

Your newly acquired covert “false friends” have cultivated a relationship with the intent of betrayal. They want to exploit your vulnerability by cleverly using anxiety, inordinate guilt, taunts and doubts to destroy your self-esteem. As you become more isolated from true friends, the dominant influence in your life becomes these crafty, deceitful persuaders. They are well trained for the task and employ psychological violence capable of serious mental and physical harm. In a very real sense, you are under attack. Their devious methods are perfectly captured in the way the Bible writer King David described his betrayer:

“His words are smoother than butter, But conflict is in his heart. His words are softer than oil, But they are drawn swords.” -Psalm 55:21

A person who is discouraged, depressed and robbed of self-esteem becomes easier to manipulate and control. Your thinking and emotions, now weakened by feelings of worthlessness and self-doubt, are the bounty sought by your covert false friends.

It can be an enormous challenge discerning the difference between genuine friends and covert operatives seeking to gain your confidence. In fact, in some cases, it is only after these covert individuals have done their damage that I discovered their true motive. After eleven years of psychological attacks and covert victimization (as of 2009), it is easier now to detect them early in their attack. I am better at spotting the signals. However, a hard-earned mental and emotional balance must be maintained. It is quite easy to misjudge the motives of well-meaning individuals.

These covert individuals are highly trained, organized, and appear to be employed or sub-contracted by government agencies in some way. I have noted that quite a number of these covert role-players appear to have military career backgrounds (they like to boast about that).

Keeping false friends at a distance is not always easy as they will persistently seek to infiltrate all areas of your life. At the very least, it may be possible to severely limit contact with some of these interlopers. Others can be neutralized simply by the fact that you are aware of what they are and exercise caution in their presence.

One powerful lesson I’ve learned is the need to choose friends wisely. Choosing close friends should not be based on happenstance events. Especially when surrounded by individuals who are deceitful by profession. I have adopted a policy of having a friendly disposition toward people in general, yet, being shrewd, discerning and selective when choosing friends. A chance encounter with someone who seems to share something in common is not a valid basis for a friendship.

Anyone slandering his companion in secrecy, Him I silence.” – Psalm 101:5

I admire the example set by King David, the writer of Psalm 101:5, who refused to keep company with anyone known for covert slander. He “silenced” such ones by refusing to listen to them.

A critical insight worthy of consideration
The psychological and physical dangers presented by these programs do not come from any one person. The various role-players in these abuses operate on the classic principle of compartmentalization used by all covert agencies who operate in secrecy.

For example, persons engaging in harassment on the street (commonly called street theater) may be unaware of the attacks their victim may experience at night when he tries to sleep, or the range of weapons involved. They only know what they need to know to play their specific role. However, it is the collective pattern of abuses that presents the greatest danger to the victim. Limiting the full details of these programs to a select few protects its secrecy. Most of the persons who play roles in these programs are not aware of everything that is being done to the targeted person.

Some of the participants may be thoroughly deceived, thinking that there is a legitimate basis for supporting a pattern of harassment. This has tempered my view of the situation. How?

The Bible has shaped my thinking in this regard:

When Jesus Christ walked the earth, he rightfully condemned the religious leaders of his day (the Scribes and Pharisees) because of their systemic corruption and hypocrisy. “Woe to You, Scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! Because You shut up the kingdom of the heavens before men; for You yourselves do not go in, neither do You permit those on their way in to go in…” -Matthew 23:13

As a group, the Pharisees opposed Jesus and were responsible for his death. However, Jesus did not assume that every individual Pharisee was beyond help, fitting a stereotype as it were.  He treated them as individuals.

When a Pharisee named Simon invited Jesus to a meal at his home to learn more about him, Jesus accepted the invitation. (Luke 7: 36-50) When a prominent Pharisee named Nicodemus secretly visited to learn more about his teachings (he was fearful of what his fellow Pharisees might think if he met openly with Jesus), he was warmly welcomed and instructed by the Christ. (John 3:1-9)

Jesus looked for the good in every person. He knew that the Pharisees were plotting to kill him. (John 11:46, 47, 53) Yet, he did not judge them all through an inflexible prism of prejudice but as individuals. Inspired by his example, I try to do the same. Although others actively seek to dehumanize me, I must resist the tendency to adopt that crippling flaw in my own thinking. Focusing on the positive qualities I see in others brightens my days.

Why Is This Happening?
The fact that seemingly endless resources are being invested in ways to covertly track, torture, and ruin the lives of persons who are not a threat to any institution cannot be explained as merely an isolated secular phenomenon. Once cherished concepts of justice and human rights are dying on an international scale. Human society has a growing, insatiable appetite for violence in all forms, including psychological cruelty. We are entertained by it, pepper our speech with it, and attempt to solve most of our problems with it. It brings to my mind a scripture that provides the only explanation that makes any sense:

“But know this, that in the last days critical times hard to deal with will be here. Men will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, self-assuming, haughty, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, disloyal, having no natural affection, not open to any agreement, slanderers, without self-control, fierce, without love of goodness, betrayers, headstrong, puffed up with pride, lovers of pleasures rather than lovers of God, having a form of godly devotion but proving false to its power.” —2 Timothy 3:1-5

I encourage you to read the words of David at Psalm 55 in your Bible. It is a great source of comfort. You will also discover that the trials we undergo are nothing new. You can endure!

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I first wrote this post on March 6, 2009 – Updated January 2, 2017